Me Vs. My Thoughts

its 3:51am in tha morning...
laying here...
distance from tha world...
thoughts races around in my head...
trying to get me say what i'm thinking...
my thoughts are like voices...
telling me to do things...
only my eyes can see...
showing me things that i would do...
trying to shake this voices outta my head...
its tha bad thoughts over powering tha good ones...
im doing my best to take control...
these thoughts are getting tha best of me...
what can i do?...
who do i turn to, in a situation like this...
i need to stand tall and be strong...
this won't last forever...
i can overcome these leeches called my thoughts...
that are sukking tha good thoughts outta my head right now...
as i find a way to close my eyes...
drift off into dream land...
hoping whatever i see in my dreams...
that when i do wake up...
that these thoughts (voices) are gone...
well tha bad ones...
in reality of this life i live...

-MyVoices-

Lets Do Tha Unthinkable II ( Would You Be Ready )

moment of honesty...
some many thoughts...
are racing through my head...
wondering how are you gonna react to them...
i'm gonna sit here and tell you what my thoughts are...
so if i tell you what they are, would you be ready?...
thinking bout skipping everything we talked bout...
getting married and having kids...
this is a feeling, a feeling that i can't let go...
these thoughts in my head got me going really krayzie...
and i can't stop thinking bout them...
so would you be ready...
if i said lets get up and get married...
have our honeymoon in paris...
then start on our family...
or would you think i'm krayzie...
it don't really matter how i'm saying this...
so whenever i ask you...
would you be ready...
you have said to me...
many times you were feeling tha same way that i was feeling...
that time was wasting...
so what was we waiting for...
if we were gonna do this...
we should do this right now...
thinking bout skipping everything we talked bout...
leaving everyone else behind...
this is a feeling, a feeling that i can't let go...
these thoughts in my head got me going really krayzie...
and i'm bout to lose my mind...
so would you be ready...
if i said lets get up and get married...
have our honeymoon in paris...
then start on our family...
or would you think i'm krayzie...
it don't really matter how i'm saying this...
so whenever i ask you...
would you be ready...
standing together on a rock...
staring in each others eyes...
with tha waves splashing on tha rock...
this is something that i don't want to end...
we never thought twice bout it...
just got up and ran away....
so would you be ready...
if i said lets get up and get married...
have our honeymoon in paris...
then start on our family...
or would you think i'm krayzie...
it don't really matter how i'm saying this...
so whenever i ask you...
would you be ready...

-MyVoices-

Fireworks

my life is a everyday...
4th Of July...
each day is a different...
type of a firework...
tha situations i go through...
is like tha fire...
lighting up tha days...
that pass by...
shooting in tha air...
letting tha whole world see...
tha things i go through in life...
so if you see different patterns in tha sky...
that means its a different situation...
each day that pass...
in my life of fireworks...

-MyVoices-

Beneath Tha Skin

beneath tha skin...
i can feel tha flow of my blood...
pumping harder and faster...
in a speed...
that i can't control...
it feels like...
it wants to tell me something...
but i can't get nothing from it...
maybe tha blood cells in my veins...
are transforming into words...
going towards to tha tip of my fingers...
giving me this feeling...
to write or type something...
beneath tha skin...
there lies something...
that beats...
pumps out tha blood cells...
i call words...
through out my body...
towards tha tips of my fingers...
beneath tha skin...
is a person, a poet...
that can pretty much...
put any words together...
turn them into something amazing...
beneath tha skin...
lies tha spirit of a caring soul of...
Mr. Rogers...

-MyVoices-

Caged Bird III ( Finally Free )

i'm finally free...
a new beginning...
new start...
not trapped anymore...
i can finally breath...
no more stressing...
i'm finally somewhere...
i can spread my wings and fly...
let tha whole world hear my song...
tha song i've kept inside for some many years...
i'm more stronger...
have more faith in me and everything i do...
its bout that time...
that i touch tha sky...
pull those stars down...
receive my blessing...
doing tha things thats right for me...
and all tha people that are really close to me...
living for tha man upstairs...
letting him lead tha way...
i'm free...
not a caged bird ever again...
can you hear me sing my song?...
if you can't hear it now...
trust me...
you will hear them as tha years pass...

-MyVoices-

Pain

what causes pain...
pain is often caused by...
tha different types of emotions...
many people suffer or deal with in life...
pleasure is often received by pain...
before finding our one and only true love...
we must go down that path towards pain...
you have to face pain in its face...
in order to get rid of it...
pain can also be caused by stress...
depression or a death in tha family...
pain is most likely to occur with tha lost of a job...
ending of a relationship...
trying to find a good paying job...
some who can't let go of tha painful memories...
sometimes they feel some kind of quilt or punishment...
they relive tha cycle in their minds over and over again...
pain can also be cause by....
when someone you care but so much...
you put your heart in that one person...
only to find out that you got nothing in return...
could be tha worse pain ever...
some people receive pain...
due to tha fact...
that everything may not go as we want it to go...
like nothing ever seems to go right...
tha same thing keeps happening over and over again...
these causes of pain don't always happen to everybody...
just certain people...
its many other stuff out there that causes pain...
that we haven't acknowledge yet...
these are many cause of pains...
that tha world goes through day and night...
how will you stand up to tha many causes of pain?...

-MyVoices-

-Untitled 2-

just when you thought...
things were going your way...
you had everything in your hand...
tha stress was getting less...
each wound of every cut...
was being healed...
when nothing in this hateful world...
could either bring you down or...
knock that smile off your face...
you would do any and everything to keep it that way....
but...
it doesn't always seem to go that way...
you wondering why...
tha cards are stacked against you...
pondering and thinking why...
is life a deck of cards...
when its dealt...
we seem to get a bad hand...
and lose in certain situations...
but it doesn't stop there...
we treat life as tha lottery and keep gambling...
until we finally win...
but winning is not for free...
if you want something...
you have to work your ass off to get it...
climb many mountains...
when you get knocked back down and few feet...
regroup and start back climbing again...
til you reach to tha top...
life is a gamble...
watch what numbers (friends) you pick...
that's gonna help you...
support you through life and be there for you...
no matter what tha situation is...
i'm thankful to say that...
i'm very blessed for tha many people...
who are very close to me...
i don't need to mention no names...
you already know who you are....
i love yall to tha fullest...

-MyVoices-

To You

despite of all we have been through...
tha ups and downs..
we cried tears together...
shared many words with each other...
wrote poems, songs, quotes...
to show each other...
how much we care for each other...
no matter what tha situation was...
rather it was good or bad...
it always brought us together...
closer and closer...
despite tha distances we have in between us...
we are even much together at heart...
i'm blessed and very thankful...
to have you in my life...
i know its only been two months and some days...
but it seems like its been longer...
as tha days pass...
i pray and ask tha almighty God...
to give me tha strength, tha faith and guide me...
through each day that i live...
i have faith in both of us...
i would never give up on you baby...
i'm thankful that you never gave up on me...
giving me tha chance to show you...
how much i care and love bout you...
so from now until whenever God decides...
to take us off this earth...
im gonna love you always...
so as i end this poem...
i just wanna say...
Thank You...

-MyVoices-

Nightmare

everything seem so great...
chilling with some old friends from high school...
catching up on stuff...
talking bout what each one of us were doing after high school...
you know laughing and talking...
just having a good time...
then just outta no where...
its start to rain...
so everybody just left...
tha person i was supposedly riding with...
had left me...
i realized i left my phone in tha car as well...
so now i'm walking in tha rain...
looking for a place...
so i can use tha phone...
ain't having no luck what so ever...
then i see some buildings...
so i go there...
praying to god...
there's somebody in there to let me use tha phone...
come to find out...
there's nobody...
so on my way back out...
i see these group of kids...
that i didn't see...
when i first went to this place...
so as i'm walking towards them...
this kid outta no where...
shot something in this other kids face...
i don't know where it came from...
but it look like it hurt...
so i ran up to tha person that's watching them...
and said "so you just gonna just sit there and let him do that"
so as i'm walking away and turn back to tha kids...
he pulls out a gun and starts to shoot...
i'm running as fast as i can...
praying that i don't get hit by one...
so thank God...
i find this place and hide there...
until things cool off...
so i get up after a few mins...
so as i'm walking...
he was right there...
bout 50 feet away...
as he shoots another shot...
I...

*wakes up breathing hard*

notice that i was still in my bed...
scared to death...
heart was beating fast...
breathing heavily...
sweat all over my face...
so i pick up my phone...
to text my baby...
to tell her bout my dream...

-MyVoices-

My Journey

its dark...
pouring down rainy...
walking on a dark road...
with tha only light that's shining...
are tha moon and stars...
hoping somebody or anybody stops...
wishful thinking...
not gonna happen no time soon...
thinking not a car has ever driven down this dark road...
as i take each step...
i hear crickets chirping...
tha owls wooing...
wolves howling...
it feels like i'm in a living horror movie...
tha rain is coming down harder...
windy blowing fast...
its thundering and lightening...
now i'm running...
trying to find some where to go...
but it feels never ending...
feels like i'm walking in a big ass circle...
should i stop and get some rest...
or should i just keep walking...
my legs getting tired...
every muscle in my body are getting tight...
even though every part of my body don't have muscles in them...
i'm getting weary...
i need to stop...
take a rest or something...
looks to find a place to rest...
i can't seem to see through this darkness...
so i just stop...
takes a breath...
leans on some random ass tree...
close my eyes...
thinking of different ways...
to survive out here in tha woods...
until i can't think no more....


to be continued...

-MyVoices-