Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Nightmare

everything seem so great...
chilling with some old friends from high school...
catching up on stuff...
talking bout what each one of us were doing after high school...
you know laughing and talking...
just having a good time...
then just outta no where...
its start to rain...
so everybody just left...
tha person i was supposedly riding with...
had left me...
i realized i left my phone in tha car as well...
so now i'm walking in tha rain...
looking for a place...
so i can use tha phone...
ain't having no luck what so ever...
then i see some buildings...
so i go there...
praying to god...
there's somebody in there to let me use tha phone...
come to find out...
there's nobody...
so on my way back out...
i see these group of kids...
that i didn't see...
when i first went to this place...
so as i'm walking towards them...
this kid outta no where...
shot something in this other kids face...
i don't know where it came from...
but it look like it hurt...
so i ran up to tha person that's watching them...
and said "so you just gonna just sit there and let him do that"
so as i'm walking away and turn back to tha kids...
he pulls out a gun and starts to shoot...
i'm running as fast as i can...
praying that i don't get hit by one...
so thank God...
i find this place and hide there...
until things cool off...
so i get up after a few mins...
so as i'm walking...
he was right there...
bout 50 feet away...
as he shoots another shot...
I...

*wakes up breathing hard*

notice that i was still in my bed...
scared to death...
heart was beating fast...
breathing heavily...
sweat all over my face...
so i pick up my phone...
to text my baby...
to tell her bout my dream...

-MyVoices-

Monday, April 26, 2010

My Journey

its dark...
pouring down rainy...
walking on a dark road...
with tha only light that's shining...
are tha moon and stars...
hoping somebody or anybody stops...
wishful thinking...
not gonna happen no time soon...
thinking not a car has ever driven down this dark road...
as i take each step...
i hear crickets chirping...
tha owls wooing...
wolves howling...
it feels like i'm in a living horror movie...
tha rain is coming down harder...
windy blowing fast...
its thundering and lightening...
now i'm running...
trying to find some where to go...
but it feels never ending...
feels like i'm walking in a big ass circle...
should i stop and get some rest...
or should i just keep walking...
my legs getting tired...
every muscle in my body are getting tight...
even though every part of my body don't have muscles in them...
i'm getting weary...
i need to stop...
take a rest or something...
looks to find a place to rest...
i can't seem to see through this darkness...
so i just stop...
takes a breath...
leans on some random ass tree...
close my eyes...
thinking of different ways...
to survive out here in tha woods...
until i can't think no more....


to be continued...

-MyVoices-

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Say Whats Real

why do i feel so alone...
its like everybody walking around me...
acting out...
playing movie roles...
waiting on tha director to say "Cut"...
but i don't hear it...
everything i see around me is real...
wondering why i'm feeling a certain way...
so many thoughts running through my head...
thinking if this relationship that i'm in...
is it all a dream or is it a reality...
so as i wake up tha next morning...
i realize...
its not a dream...
its real..
i finally found someone...
that's going be there...
no matter what tha situation is...
many people run and tell people i have some of tha best poetry...
then i tell them "silly muthafukka, i'm not at my best just yet"...
sometimes i feel that i can do better...
then i feel this is not real...
as more and more poems...
begin to pour outta my mind...
rushing through my veins...
to tha tip of my fingers...
as i begin to type my ass off...
posting every word i think of...
this is something i can't stop...
my addiction...
this type of drug that i could OD...
but i would never die from it...
people steady giving me suggestions...
that i should go to open mic...
saying im gonna have fun...
and i'm wondering how...
cause i just might see my...
ex girl, standing with my next girl, standing with tha girl i'm fukking right now...
hey...
maybe they all know each other...
if they do...
i'm gonna stay clear...
cause houston texas, is not a small town...
but you know bitches talk and every other bitch listen...
but there's no truth, cause everything is missing...
so if i ever lose my password to my blogspot...
and you find a way to hack into it...
sell these poems to any poet out there...
cause i won't need them anymore...
i got new shit...
i'm getter better still...
i may not have a job...
no money...
nothing at tha moment...
but i still have myself respect...
and some people don't have that...
to my baby girl...
don't worry love...
we maybe apart as of right now...
its only temporary...
one day we will be together...
in each others arms...
that's real love...
besides tha music and poetry...
you and tha love that you show me...
could only make me smile...
i know your eyes can't see at this moment...
but your heart can see it...
please don't take offense of what i'm saying...
its only real to get this off my chest...
tha things i see...
i feel deep inside of me...
you prolly saying "that's gay shit, you better kill"...
so what i'm typing got a makings of something real...
problem with these other niggas...
they ain't never real....
i'm just saying...

-MyVoices-

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Myself As A Cancer (Zodiac)

myself as a cancer...
tha many things...
that i have witness bout myself...
some are good and bad...
but tha good out weighs tha bad...
for those who have been around me...
may disagree with me on this one...
but these are things that i know so well...
myself as a cancer...
can be a very caring person...
loves his family so very much...
will always help them out before helping anyone else....
i tend to get all worry when it comes to someone close to me...
someone that i dearly love...
i'm a advice giver but won't take my own advice...
always listens to other peoples problems...
even tho sometimes i don't...
i'm a very sensitive person...
worry bout things that don't need to be worried bout...
my mood changes everyday...
one day i might be sad...
tha next happy as hell...
then back to being depressed and shit...
i'm tha type of person...
if i ask you to do something for me...
and you agree to do it...
if a week passes by...
i won't even bother you bout it...
when you get to it then you get to it...
i'm very good at being patient...
sometimes if i get tha feeling that somebody is busy...
and they say i can hit them up anytime...
knowing that im not...
if you're busy...
then you're busy...
just hit me up whenever...
i'm tha type of person...
if somebody says to me "you can ask me for anything"...
hell naw i don't trust that shit...
you know how niggas are these days...
you get into a argument...
then they wanna bring up that shit bout them loaning you money...
fukk that....
i never pressure anybody in doing something they don't wanna do...
i ask alot of questions...
if you do answer tha questions...
sometimes i get this feeling inside that you didn't answer my question right...
i have this sense that i can feel when another person is down and out...
or i may see it on twitter...
i tend to ask tha person what's wrong...
i mean that's just tha person i am...
i may have alot of female followers...
but that doesn't mean i'm a flirt...
its me being a very friendly person...
these are just some facts bout me being a cancer (Zodiac)...
when i'm in a relationship...
i tend to forget bout my past...
but if tha person that i'm with...
tends to do me wrong...
then tha past flashes back into my eyes once again...
once i again i get that bitter anger in me bout relationships...
not a picky person at all...
especially when it comes to a relationship...
tha way i see it...
tha looks doesn't make a woman beautiful...
your heart is what makes you beautiful...
i really don't ask for much of anything...
i'm just saying...
these are facts bout me being a cancer (Zodiac)...
whether you love it or hate it...
these are some facts bout me...
oh yea i forgot...
there's another thing that i really love so much...
and i believe my other cancerians fell tha same way...
well there's two other things....
after theses and i will be done...
number 1...
sometimes i get tha feeling that tha person you're with...
when they expression how they feel inside...
i get that feeling like...
its not all there...
but we still take it as something good...
cause we feel that something is better than nothing...
number 2...
we love our fukking music...
music is like our drug...
we get high and it takes us to another place...
tha mood changes completely...
when we hear our favorite song...
it takes us to heaven...
but like i said many of times...
these are just some facts bout me being a cancer (Zodiac)...
i hope you got your cancerucation on...

-MyVoices-

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Dreams

dreams are substance of a place...
where he/she mind travels...
to a place where only...
it can get there is by sleeping...
dreaming of many things...
only one person can imaging being...
many people only dream...
cause they feel its real...
realer than what goes on in tha real world...
they seem to get what they want in their dreams...
dreams are sometimes turned into a nightmare...
nightmares that makes a person toss and turn...
sweat constantly...
heavy breathing...
only to find out it was a bad dream...
when finally woken up...
dreams are good...
some are bad...
dreams are sometimes mistaken...
a getaway place...
from everything around us...
dreams seem to take our minds...
off of alot shit we deal with...
in reality...
so what kind of dreams do you dream bout?...
only you will know tha answer...

-MyVoices-

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Waiting

its many things in life...
that i've been waiting or still waiting...
for that matter...
i'm waiting on that big break...
that something that's gonna change my whole life...
even tha people that's in it...
waiting on a remedy...
a cure for tha pain that's in me...
tired of feeling lonely...
waiting for that day to only be with you...
tha day where i can hold you so close...
where you can feel my heart beat your name...
waiting on that very day...
that day where my words will finally get published...
where tha whole world will finally read what my heart...
has endure over tha many years...
tha world will know what it feels like...
to walk around with such a heavy heart...
waiting on tha day...
that tha picture that i seen in my dream...
waiting where i can finish it...
frame it into reality...
while i sit here and wait for all this to happen...
i have to pray...
ask tha man upstairs...
to give me tha strength and faith...
to make all this possible...
cause i know he can make anything possible...
now i wait for my blessings to happen....

-MyVoices-

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Tears In My Heart

these tears...
that my heart sheds...
is tha only thing...
that's keeping it...
from dying of thrust...
tha tears that comes...
out tha eyes of my heart...
are only tears of pain...
pain that has made me a stronger person...
my heart has cried out these tears for years...
but it seems like tha pain doesn't go away...
tha more tears that my heart has cried...
they begin to run down my heart...
to tha botton of my heart...
it begins to taste more pain...
so it builds up...
pain on top of pain...
so tha only way to release this pain...
is to cry them out...
so next time my heart...
cries out these tears...
my heart will stretch out its hands...
catch these tears of pain...
rub tha hands together...
watch it evaporate...
then wash my hands...
to cleanse tha tears away...

-MyVoices-

Saturday, April 3, 2010

Thank You

these are my many thank you's...
first i just wanna thank...
tha almighty...
my lord and savior...
tha Lord Jesus Christ...
for giving me strength...
tha glory and talent...
to write such great poems...
for giving me tha ability...
to touch every broken heart...
giving inspiration to those...
to do better in life...
to dream...
and make it a big reality...
i wanna also give thanx...
to tha most...
beautiful group of people...
to ever follow on twitter...
my AK fam...
thank you for tha encouraging words...
tha support...
i love yall to tha fullest...
never met such a group of loving people as yall...
i also wanna give thanx...
to tha ones...
who have been there for me since day one...
that made me a stronger person...
tha ones who never gave up on me...
i love yall for that...
those who told me anything is possible...
if you believe...
without tha faith from God...
none of this would be possible...
thank you so much...
i love each and ever last one of yall...

-MyVoices-